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Yeah…I am just that lazy these days.

Clearly.

August was a blur.  And now summer is over.

There is so much, and yet not nearly enough to say.

I’ve been working on me mostly, and gotten back into this really great routine in the morning.  I’ve been getting my butt up at Stupid o’clock and hitting the gym.  Most days I come home and go back to sleep until the Little gets up.  Which is nice, but then I just feel wrecked all day.

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I’ve also been slowly transforming my diet back to a clean and mostly organic diet…after realizing I may be having some gluten intolerance issues recently.  I miss pasta.  And bread.  But the effects on the rest of my body have been very noticeable.  My skin is clearer, my hair has been fantastic…

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So… I’m going to stay sans pasta and bread for as long as necessary if I look and feel better.

Also…how is my baby going to be TWO in 6 weeks?!?!?!

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Everyday is an adventure with this one.  And everyday calls for a costume.  On this particular day she was a fairy.  But the wings have been a common accessory lately.  She always wants to be noticed, and loves being the center of attention…oh so opposite from her mother.  She is still very much Minion obsessed.  But I am so glad it’s not Dora, or something far more annoying like Calliou or Sponge Bob…which by the way…will NEVER be played in my house.  Eva!!  I’d rather only ever watch Despicable Me 2 for the rest of my life than any of those other shows.

We are also taking a big step in our household…

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Yeah…gonna maybe put some roots down.  The only thing is that we would be putting roots down in a place I’m not sure I want to be.  I want to get out of MN so badly.  Part of me feels like if we buy a home here…we are stuck here.  But we really need more space, and I think it’s time.  So many of our friends have homes, and don’t rent anymore.  Home ownership is such a huge responsibility, I just hope we are prepared for all of it.  It also means that this CHO’s (Chief Household Officer) job just gets bigger…

There are lots of other things in the works currently…but not ready to share just yet.  I am taking steps to start up something awesome and it’s something that I get asked about A LOT…so I am really excited to start this ball rolling!

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Dear Present Me


I shared this status on Facebook just now, but I really feel that the words need a broader audience than my small circle of friends.

This is for anyone struggling today.

Dear Present Me,

I know right now you are hurting, and sad. This didn’t turn out the way you wanted it to, and now you are paying the price for putting yourself out there. You can still breathe, even though it feels like all of the air has left you. You can still stand up even though you feel like you’ve fallen down a deep well and the world is spinning too fast. You have gotten over this before, and you know that you can move past it. You have already done it.

Do not let this derail you. DO. NOT. LET. THIS. BREAK. YOU. You are so much stronger than this. You know you are. Just because you have gotten to a place where you feel good, and are happy does not mean that you do not deserve it. You are not out anything. Nothing has changed. This did not happen to you because you finally embraced happiness.

This is not the end. It will get better. Do not forget that you have what you need already. You have a mantra permanently inked on your body for helping get through hard times such as these. Never give up hope. Lean on the people that you share your life with, they are here for you and love you unconditionally. They will always pick you up when you fall down. You are not alone in this. This will not break you.

This is not about you. This is about timing. Moving on doesn’t not mean forgetting, it means living and not falling down and staying there. It means finishing what you have set out to do. It means making them proud. And making yourself proud. You can grieve this, but don’t you stay there longer than you told yourself you would. This was not a once in a lifetime opportunity. You may get another chance to have what you want, but don’t stay here and wait for it to happen, or life will pass you by. I know it feels like a sucker punch to the chest; but it will get better. This does not break you.

❤ Love, Future you

Let’s catch you up, shall we?


So when I last posted, other than about moving this blog to a new residence, it was November and winter had just started to creep in.  I was also trying to dye my hair purple, and my little human was still in the throes of a post-surgery-sleep-regression-nightmare.

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I got my purple hair.  But it took about 21 hours and 3 visits to accomplish.

Winter lasted foooooooooorrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeevvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrr

And the little human finally got over her sleep issues…by Christmas time.

But here are some other things that happened:

  1. I fell out of love with fitness, and fell off the healthy eating wagon and rolled for several miles behind it in the dust before I was able to stand back up.
  2. I bought my first Erin Condren Life Planner. (If you shop at this link you can get $10 off your purchase!  Weee!)
  3. I went to Illinois for a photo shoot, with my then business partner.  More about that one later…ashley_0082
  4. I opened my Etsy shop back up… I sell awesome stickers for planners now.  Go.  Check it out.  Now.  It’s awesome!  Plus…because I love ya… use code: FANSOFKAT for 10% off your purchase of $15+.  I am an official entrepreneur now…yaaaaay. FB etsy logo
  5. Finally decided on adding another member to our family…no babies yet because…well…endo still rears her ugly stupid head.
  6. I quit Beachbody…and I will NEVER work for another direct sales company EVER again.  Aside from the business aspect, I have come to hold more respect for clean eating, and know with every fiber of my being that eating a clean, unprocessed or minimally processed diet is what will help you lose weight and be healthier.  No shake or pill can do that for you.  Business wise…I just couldn’t be involved with a company that sold products that I didn’t believe in.  Plus, I just don’t do drama or ridiculousness.
  7. We are headed to Florida again in just about 3 weeks…EEEEEEKKKKK!  I cannot wait.  3 weeks in Florida!?  Um, YEAH!
  8. I am just 8ish pounds from my pre-pregnancy weight…holy cow!  For half-assing it these last 6 months I am very proud of myself.  Progress pictures coming soon.
  9. I am still dealing with PPD…yeah.  STILL.  It happens folks.  And it can stick around for a few years after that bundle of joy arrives.  Are we nuts for thinking of having another baby?!  I have more good days than bad, and Hadley is the light of my life.  But man that transition from only worrying about yourself to you AND another human…oops…I mean another human and then maybe yourself if there is time left over, or they take a nap.
  10. We bought a Subaru and I frickin love it.

So now that you are mostly caught up, and I am back…I will do my best to post more.  Life with kids is hard, and I still struggle to find balance in life.  But that will probably never change…it just need to get better at it.

Hope you all have a lovely Memorial Day weekend!

5 Things Friday


5 Things Friday

Happy Halloween!  And holy cow October is over already!  I seriously am blown away by how fast this year feels like it’s going by.

I am so not ready for it to be “The Holidays” soon…

Here’s your 5

  1. Chipotle is not smart pre-workout fuel.  Just sayin.
  2.  I have the cutest sidekick eva! hadley halloween 2014
  3. And my cute little super baby is going through one of the worst sleep regressions right now.  I am supposed to also be Wonder Woman…but I am feeling like my super hero name should be Zombie Mom.  ugh….I think we might have to try a little melatonin to help her get to sleep and stay asleep.  She is my child and I know that I don’t make enough to keep me sleeping like a normal person.
  4. I get to go back to yoga!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I am super excited to be able to go back to a studio and get my hot yoga on!
  5. I decided this week that I am not stepping on the scale for 60 days.  Which could be great for me and also terrifying on January 1st when I weigh myself.

Have a happy and safe Halloween everyone!!

Throwback Thursday


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This post was inspired by a friend who just turned 25 this week, and has gone through a lot of ups and downs over the last year.  It made me think back to my mid 20s and how I never thought I’d be happy, or that I would have anything that I wanted.  Because every time I came close to being happy, someone or something had to smash it all to hell.

This photo was taken at the Chicago Conservatory…obviously on November 10th 2007.  Nearly 7 years ago.  At that moment I was with a guy that I barely knew…we met on eHarmony, and after hundred of hours of phone conversations we decided to meet halfway between our home states, in Chicago. We did a lot of sightseeing, and planned this trip for WEEEEEEEEKS.

This is the only photo I have with him in it from that trip, even though I took hundreds of us that weekend.  Because I destroyed all evidence of him just a few weeks later.

I remember the weeks leading up to “meeting” him online.  I was pining away for someone who would never want to be with me the way I wanted him to; I was…for lack of a better word, homeless (I rented a room, from my best friend and her idiot husband, for a disgusting amount of money that left me so broke I couldn’t feed myself, and so miserable from their dysfunctional relationship that I thought I was nuts.) and picked up every single shift I could get at what ever retail job I was working at at that time (I don’t even remember…Mimi Maternity maybe???).  I was lost.  I was questioning everything and when J* and I “met” online I felt like it was fate, it was meant to be and he was The One.

It was.  It wasn’t.  He was not.  To make a long story short, he proposed on the way home, over the phone (Hellllo HANS!), I said yes (My middle name is Ann….hmmmm); and just 2 short weeks later her crushed me by telling me he was going to go back to his ex.  Talk about a roller coaster of emotions there.  (I hope you all get the frozen references there…and when I returned home my “BFF” told me I could not marry a guy I just met, and that I was wako and needed to be committed…like literally taken to the psych ward.)

That was pretty much rock bottom for me.  I hated pretty much everyone and everything about my life.  I honestly thought that I did something so heinous that I never deserved to be happy.  But I was wrong.

Just over a year and a half, 2 more boyfriends-ish, 2 moves and one more internet dating attempt later…I did meet The One.  The Only One.  Life turned around so fast and not because of a guy.  Because I met my other half, the one who lifts me up and is my life line in rough times.  I never would have thought at the moment that I took that photo, that my life would take such a dramatic turn and go on a totally different path than the one I saw before me.

It’s crazy what can happen in 7 years!

12 Months


12 Months

We did it! We all survived our first year as parents and as a little human. She has changed so much in the last 12 months, it just blows my mind. She certainly has her own personality, and knows what she likes, and wants and what she doesn’t.

She is such a beautiful little girl, and I love her sense of humor. I love being able to laugh with her over something she sees for the first time, or most of the time at nothing at all…she just loves to laugh so much.

She has 2 new teeth that have recently made their way through, and working on two more. She is just days away from walking, I am sure of it. As she has been getting brave and taking a step before her forward trust falls into mommy. We have a good vocabulary already, it consists of mama, dada, nana, no, bum bum, and ma’am…with the makings of …MINE in there sometimes!

This last year has blessed me beyond my expectations, challenged my stamina, and left me with many a sleepless night, it has had me rolling on the floor laughing, and sometimes crying too…it has not always been pretty, or fun…sometimes it was downright messy. But I never would have made it through this year without the help of the most amazing mommies I know. So thank you to all of you mommy warriors in my tribe…you know who you are!

5 Things Friday


5 Things Friday

Oh friends…it has been such a week.  Like the loooooooooooongest week eva…

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Last week Miss Hads had her surgery on her hand.  And then got a full arm cast.  Oy.  At least we know that she has a killer right hook.  Owie.  It’s not stopping her or slowing her down at. all.  Which is great.  The cast comes off on October 14th.

Is it October 14th yet?  No?  Ok then…

Here’s your 5!

  1. Run This Dad and I made some really excited plans and decision for the future of our family and I am beyond thrilled about it.  But I can’t share yet.  Sorry… 🙂
  2. I pulled out of my 10 miler from last weekend, and have chosen not to run my half next week.  I have not been training very well, due to injury.  So I know it’s best.  But I’m super bummed about spending the money on so many races that I never got to do because of my stupid back.
  3. Starting next Friday we will be having a new friend come to play with us 4 days a week!  It’ll be good for Miss Hadley to have a buddy around, and not just me!  I am excited to start babysitting again!
  4. I am giving away a Spartan Race Entry!  DO NOT MISS IT!  10250188_815340468539796_2625812624495111773_n
  5. I hate teething.  That is all.